I feel mixed, but also I'm sick in bed lol
Heavy situation I will cover first before I write some good news. How does one move on from a situation and the gravity of what happened? No, this isn't about Sink, he can probably hop off my site now. This situation went on since I was 15. One side of the situation will tell me that I deserved it while the other side doesn't. I'm going to lay a bombshell. I'm autistic, I will heavily hyperfixate on things and lack the social cues to interact with individuals, public and private. This does not mean I am self centered, I care deeply about individuals, hence why most of my time is spent online talking to people I consider close. I was lied about. I cannot handle vents, or venting to individuals. I've made that clear and always apologized if I did. To ALL friends. I've matured since then, I learned how to hold myself and others accountable. To the individual lying about me, stop it. You have lied to me and others to try and sever my friendships. I cannot stress that yes, me cutting you off was silly but now that I'm aware that you keep lying about me as an individual: I find it justified to do so. Never come back. I will not share what was said or namedrop the individual, I want to quietly move on. Even if they had very immoral things they were into and did to me. Do not continue fanning the flames, I'm done. Stop discussing about me because you clearly do not know me as the person I am currently.
On a fairly positive note, I have recieved $2266 in the mail today as a refund. This means if I mix this with my current check, I can finally pay off my college debt after this upcoming paycheck from work. I can finally save up for what I need and buy stuff for my siblings, since well, my parents won't exactly get them what they want. I'm taking this as the biggest step towards becoming an adult. I'm also kinda isolating myself more in more social aspects and I can't thank it enough. I can finally work on myself and do the things that I personally enjoy without relying on the judgement of others. I want to continue working without the risk. Also on the topic of school, I don't have my phone so I cannot check my email if you're trying to reach out :')
Those are all updates I have for today.
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